Come What May, and Love It....

So I would have to say that this last Year has been one of the hardest for me. To tell you the truth I don't really know why I am sharing this because it touches a certain place in my heart that is very tender to me. I guess I feel the need to.


It is hard for me to talk about this because I know certain people who have gone through the same thing or are going through it now. Some might think that this is nothing compared to some but for me personally it is very hard so I can not even Imagine others who have had to go though it even longer then I have. So I am sure most of you know exactly what I am talking about but for those of you that don't.. I have been trying to get pregnant for almost a Year now, it is a very frustrating thing and recently I have come to find out that one of my biggest fears that I had while growing up has finally come true. ( having a hard time getting pregnant) The hardest part is that I have been there done it, I have one beautiful Daughter who I love to death. So I think to my self and sometimes out loud...WHAT IS THE PROBLEM!!!

This last Saturday I went to go get some blood work done and hopefully soon I will be able to find out if there is anything wrong and if not we can go from there.


I will have to say that I have learned a lot from this trial that I am going through right now. I have learned patience, I have learned that these little babies are a MIRACLE and I am so thankful to have one, I have learned to be sympathetic to other people and the heart aches they are going through. I have learned and this one just recently only because it took me a while not to be bitter about this whole thing, Come What May, and Love It.. Wow even now it is hard for me to say because really it is very hard to love what is going on right now.. This saying came from a talk that I read in the Ensign given by Elder Joseph B. Wirthlin and it really hit that spot where you finally have to wake up and look around you and be grateful for everything you have now. I know this is just a trial that will be for a little while and one day I will look back and probably forget how hard it actually was but for now I think I will just Learn from it and Love it!


I will tell you one thing... This little girl keeps me going and smiling Every Day!